IN LIBRARY, AGAIN


GOSH i'm reverting back to my old intense mugger self!


ANW I FELL WHILE ALIGHTING FRM THE BUS JUST NOW. Tt's not all. What's worse was tt it was on the same spot where i fell the previous 2 times. Zzz. C'mon, falling down 3 times on the exact same spot within the span of 3 months? What are the odds?


I had my first math mid term test ytd and it was completely atrocious. The entire process of doing the paper was pure trauma. TOTAL MADNESS. I almost had a panic attack when i couldn't get the answers for most of the qns.


And they say math is supposed to be the easiest module. Wth?


Taking another test later in the evening- Econs. O.M.G. Am dreading it so badly :(((


Alright back to mugging..



IN LIBRARY NOW


Just had EC with newly-found EC =x


Go figure out!



You're full moon crazy


Randomly chanced upon this band
Honor Society
and fell instantly in love with them


Also in love with Taylor Swift's new video
You belong with me
Love how she acted as both the nerd and the bitch in it
and also bcus i love cheesy fairytale endings :P


Am attempting my maths tutorial which i didn't manage to complete last wk. Fourier series is driving me completely nuts bcus i dun understand a single shit abt it.


Sth random: I went w/o sleep for 34hrs and slept for 15hrs straight aft tt.



SCREW EG1413
SCREW PROGRAMMING
SCREW UNI LIFE

Stress has taken over me completely..



CRAP SPELLS ME


It's 12.54am right now and since blogger is finally working (aft a pretty much damn long time), i'm gna bring some life back to this semi-alive space.


Last Friday was spent celebrating Huiying's 19th birthday. It was just a simple get-together but nonetheless hope you enjoyed yourself and the semi-failed surprise :)




Us and the 'one-armed-hero' Huiying :)


Dragged myself out of bed the next morning despite only having 4 pathetic hrs of sleep and headed back to school for IFG floorball. Engin was doing kinda well so we pretty much thought we'd at least get into semi but guess we kinda ran out of luck when we lost our last match and there went our chance. But taking into consideration the fact that we had no NUS team players, we actually played pretty well. So, kudos to team engin! :)))


After washing up, i met up with my EG grp to discuss our project. And throughout that 3 hrs, i was struggling really hard to keep myself awake. Much apologies to my grp members for my lack of concentration and attention!


Last min plans to have dinner with my family and wc at T3 popeyes and after that, wc and i left to catch 'I Love You, Beth Cooper' at tmall which to me was a total waste of money bcus i thought the storyline was kinda dumb (or was there even a storyline in the first place?) and the starting part was just totally weird. I thought it would at least be a normal chick flick (i mean, just look at the title) BUT IT WASN'T. Shld have caught coco avant chanel instead, am sure it'd be much better.


Prata for supper at the near 24hr prata shop near my house after tt and I LOVE PAPER/TISSUE PRATAS (whatever the shop calls it) esp the ones with chocolate sauce on them!! But i prefer simpang's prata bcus the prata that i had was too oily for my liking.


But anwsss PRATAS still rock bcus they'll always be my best choice for supper!


This morning (or last), i woke up with a very determined mind and hence i came up with my 'objective for the day', which was: to study for the entire day. But i totally lost that sense of determination when my mummy suggested going to the john little sale. So i ended up at expo and then suntec for the Comex IT fair a few hrs later. In btwn, i spotted a sale at NUM (50% off - for 2 items!), aft which me and my bro each ended up with a pair of braziliano praia (the one with the strap at the back). Trip to Comex was productive bcus i found what i was looking for: a 320GB external hard drive and a 4GB thumb drive. But my bro was kinda disappointed bcus his iTouch gen2 was out of stock and gen3 was too expensive.


And after coming back home just now, i wanted to relieve myself a little of my guilt by doing a bit of my work before gg to sleep. But i wasted time doing stupid and useless things on my laptop.


Now, not only do i have a pile of untouched assignments, i'm also having a serious deprivation of sleep.


AND I'M STILL FREAKING HERE. AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHY.


I have an assignment which is due this thurs and it constitutes 21% of my grade but i haven't even started on it.


I dun understand my maths lecture but i'm not doing anyth.


I knw that my programming is completely screwed but i'm not putting in any effort.


I knw that i have school tmr but i'm still not asleep.


I knw that my coursemates are g**damn smarter and better than me and so as not to fall into the bottom region of the g**damn cursed bell curve, i should instead of blogging, be using this time to study but I'M STILL HERE.


I didn't used to be like this in jc, i have no idea why i've become like this. Again and again, i felt the pressure to study. But i just kept finding excuses to put studying aside. Playing and having fun was one of the common excuse that i used to temporarily suppress the pressure that i was feeling. And that suppressed pressure just keeps accumulating and accumulating.


I knw that i shld do sth about my situation but i'm not doing anyth helpful at all. It's really damn frustrating bcus i knw that i'm supposed to study but i'm just not doing so. I knw that i sound really rubbishy saying all these bcus you must think that i'm just being downright lazy. But that's not true. Those who have known me personally since sec sch or jc will knw that i'm definitely not a lazy person. I want to study, or rather, i NEED to study in order to hit that min CAP. I can't afford to lose that award, otherwise i'd hafta pay back the lump sum. I can't let that happen..


I really need to find back that motivation that i used to have. The motivation to study and to do well. Otherwise, my entire uni life would be even more screwed up. Well, it already is.


Someone, please help me to help myself before i break down even further..



MeiQi is writing her critique for EG1413 on her birthday.

EG1413: Critical Thinking and Writing

How sad.