My meimei is sick.



A feverish temperature of 38.8 deg cel in the afternoon when I reached home. Her body was burning to my touch. Poor thing. So I tried to bring her temperature down by wiping her body with a damp towel. Plus she complained of her stomach aching and vomitted a few times after that too. And you know what, she told me that she has chinese spelling tmr but because of her being sick, she can't attend school tmr and take it.



Get well soon, meimei! (Though she can't read this.)



That night, the glistening moonlight shone upon the placid clear lake; the twinkling stars dotted the night sky; the rustling of the leaves echoed.



Silence came upon and the feeling of grief permeates the air. He held her tight, tight enough to feel her heartbeat.



A teardrop fell. Light as a feather, yet it caused a loud thud in his heart. One by one, every teardrop seemed like a dagger piercing through his heart. But he knew that the pain he was going through couldn't be compared to hers.



The night grew colder with the frigid air, he held her tighter but their hearts weren't beating in unison anymore. Till dawn, they stayed like this in each other's embrace. But all things had their end to them. She looked up to him, with her eyes which used to sparkle but now sunken and dampened with tears. He couldn't bear to look but it might be the last time doing so. He gazed lovingly, yet painfully at her angelic face, the face he fell in love with. Unknowingly, their lips met. It was that one special moment; that one special kiss that one wouldn't forget.



It was time. He turned to leave but at that moment, she held onto his hand, begging.



Don't go, please.



His heart ached. But he had no choice.



I'm sorry.



With that, he gently removed her hand and left.



This night, the moonlight still glistened; the stars still shone; the rustling of the leaves remained. Everything was the same. Except. She wasn't there. He couldn't help but allow the pain to penetrate through him, as though cutting through every organ in his body.



The reminiscence of that night was too hard for him to take. He didn't want to leave but he had to, hence, leaving her in devastation. However, she didn't know of the compelling reasons of his sudden departure. He made a promise not to tell. That was because he wanted her to be happy. If he had known earlier, he would even tell her his darkest secrets. Things would then not turn out this way. She was silly. Far too silly. Why did she have to do that? Remorse and self reproach filled him once again.



He stared at his reflection in the water.



Wait for me, baby. I'm coming.



But just then, he thought of her love for him. It was a definite fact that she loved him and would not want him to be in this dismal state. She would have wanted him to lead a fulfilling life, regardless of what happened and not get burdened by her.



He stood by the lake and pondered long and hard.



Yes. For your sake, I'll live on. That's because I love you.



At the moment, he heard a distant yet familiar voice.



I love you too.



He smiled, with a teardrop in his eye.



Haven't blog for quite some time already. Hmm. So, here goes! Lemme start frm the latest stuff. Just an overview though.



TODAY.



Ah, was crappish. Actually planned to wake up really early to jog but I continued sleeping till 11+ when the alarm rang off at 730.



YESTERDAY.



Read Straits Times, Home section. There's an article on Merdian Fb team. I see glendon la!


SCAS session aft school. But i had to rush off again because i had Fb training at Valhal aft that. Yes, finally. I can imagine padpad, mogu and chingying's reactions: WAH. FINALLY AH. Haha. This time, we played against the J2 and it was so ohmygodly. Today was the first time I ran like crazy and played so aggressively as a defender. But it was a thrill :) And woah. I tripped over my own leg and fell during the simple double drill. My right knee hurt because of that. It must be Pam's fault! Haha. Reached home at 9+ and was dead beat.



Woo, I got 9 for my jersey no. I thought 9 was alr taken. So, yay!



Another thing for them to rejoice over. There's training on every Wed and Fri frm next week onwards. I’m trying hard not to picture their sinister reactions.



WEDNESDAY.



Temasek Seminar at some SAFTI place. Ministers' speeches were long winded and hypnotizing. I bet around 1/2 of the students were asleep. It was time for tea reception and it was also when I saw Shawn Yue! The guy who starred in I Not Stupid as Jack Neo's son. But I regretted not taking a picture with him. Chuan did! Wahaha. He's so good looking in person :D Heh.



Btw, I think the tie made us looked smart. LOL.



Before I forget, HAPPY BIRTHDAY PADPAD! :)



TUESDAY



Last day of Fb competition. And Meridian emerged as the champion for both the guys and girls team. Congrats! Ohmygod. SO COOL! Felt really happy and proud for them though I wasn't playing. Haha. I can predict the tremendous amount of pressure being put on us next year. That's if I can get into the team.



Yesterday
Love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
Oh, I believe
In yesterday





EOM was crap. Yet I spent 5 hours on it last night. Lessons after recess were tormenting, largely because I couldn't keep myself awake at all. It was so draining that I almost died. Geez, I should be thankful I made it out of school alive!



Nah. Just kidding.



I regretted not preordering the HP book before the GST hike. Sigh. Now, I can't bear to part with my money to buy the book. Waiting for some kind soul to lend it to me at the moment. But it sucks having to wait. Spoilers are everywhere- irritating!





That was just an excuse.



My papa.



I was watching mtv channel when he walked into the room. Maroon 5's Makes Me Wonder was playing. He paused and stared at the tv for quite some time.



"What band is it?"



I was surprised by his question.



"Eh. Maroon 5?"



He watched and listened attentively.



"I like the beat. And the rhythm."



He finished watching the mv before going for his shower.



Cool.



20 07 2007.



First time watching a fb match and it was super exciting. Anyway there's this pair of (really cute) twins from vj :) 19 & 20. But something frightening happened during the match. There was once when 20 was near the board and i could see him quite clearly. BUT when he turned, i saw blood streaming down his face! OHMYGOD. I let out a gasp and almost screamed. At first i thought it was my hallucination but others saw it too. Poor 20. It must have hurt an awful lot :( Okay. Overall. Good match (to me la). Mj-7, Vj-3 (or was it 2?)



That Music Thing. Didn't expect much from it initially because i heard that response wasn't that overwhelming. But woah. It turned out to be great! Wild night. Screamed and shouted my heart out. Jumped like nobody's business. Excellent way of destressing. And Callisto got 2nd for the video com. Lol. Well, that $4 spent didn't go to waste!



I Lay My Love On You



Still remember this once-upon-a-time song?



I lay my love on you
You make me feel brand new
Show me your love and walk right through
As I lay my love on you



Yes. I shouldn't blog so often.


But it feels so weird to leave gaps in my blog. Feels as though something's lacking. Oh. Quit being a perfectionist. Well, well. I shall not then. You guys will see lesser of me from today onwards. I know, it's hard for both you and me. You'll miss my rantings (haha!) and i'll miss doing the crapping. Anyway, what's up with the sudden formality? Hmmm.


K. I started tuition with dear Tony yesterday. (Some might refer him as The Muscleman. YOUKNOWWHOYOUARE.) No choice. I'm desperately in need of help in Maths. And so to further aid me, he threw me a stack of AP GP assignment and a set of TJC '01 MYE Maths paper.


ANYWAY again. There's this super hot guy whom i saw on tv. David Garrett. A violist who has his own album. I don't know what you guys think but i think he's dangerously charming. Especially after seeing his video on his site. I mean, who won't be mesmerized by a guy who's serious at work?


Go check out his site. Gorgeous pictures. Remember, it's David Garrett.



i'm feeling restless and bored after some few consecutive hours of studying. so, here i am, destressing! and also, to educate you :)


when you listen to a emotional-filled piece of music; when you listen to a horror story told by a friend; when you experience cold- you get goosebumps. well, it suddenly chanced upon me, what causes goosebumps? being inquisitive, i went wikipedia but the explanation was too technical. so, nope. searched on and found this information which i thought would be sufficient to answer my question.


the below info is somewhat edited from the original source. but the gist is there. lines in bold are my comments.




Goose bumps are caused by a reflex called piloerection. All mammals, including us, have skin covered with hair. Much of our body hair is quite fine -- sometimes barely visible. When the hair in the follicle (fig 1) lifts up (that's piloerection) it makes the hair follicle stand out. And that causes goose bumps, so named because they look like the skin of a plucked goose.


Haha. Cute way of naming.




Fig 1: Hair follice.




Piloerection puffs up furry mammals, making a cold animal warmer or a frightened animal more impressive. That's why when a kitten encounters a dog, it turns into a little hissing puffball.


Does that mean hairy people get goose bumps more easily? Haha. That includes you, Huangyi.




Goose bumps are an automatic response, like sweating or increased heart rate. We can't easily control them. Like other emotion-linked reflexes -- blushing, turning pale, butterflies in the stomach -- goose bumps are triggered by the limbic system of the brain. This governs primitive drives: sex, fear, rage, aggression and hunger. All the good stuff.


LOL. Why did the author classify them under 'good stuff'?




The limbic system is connected to two parts of the brain: the thalamus, which receives virtually all sensory input, and the hypothalamus. In humans, these parts of the brain allow emotional stimulation from music or the reading of poetry to cause goose bumps.


Ah, that explains why i get goosebumps when i listen to music. Heh. Poetry too! Kind of reminds me of Garyn's poems =x




It seems music not only soothes the savage breast, it also makes it prickly.


Erm. Wait. Is that supposed to be a typo? Breast or beast? Alright. Male readers, remain calm.




For some, being in a specific fearful situation causes goose bumps, but in another the same specific fearful situation does not. For example, a young child gets goose bumps because he is in a poorly lit room with whistling winds and long shadows and his best friend telling him a story about someone getting killed by a ghost in this very room. But if you were in the same room and being told the same story, you would probably not have goose bumps. The young child does not have the same previous experiences as you.


Okay. Sad fact. I'm still a young child :(




Source: http://pickbrains.com/goosebumps-what-causes-goose-bumps



ominous day.


the game session with the kids at SCAS was screwed because we had to leave early to catch the show at 4. was brimming with guilt when wanchin agreed not to tell the teacher i/c about us leaving early. aurgh. i ought to be berated.


:(


cabbed down to suntec and it cost us $17. luckily i came with padpad. otherwise i would have paid $24 for a movie tix. $15.50 was already bad enough :( reached at approx 415, ran all way to the cinema and had a hard time finding my way to my reserved seat. thanks a lot wobbly :) this fifth sequel of harry potter (i almost typed "happy" potter) was kinda disappointing for me. so much details were left out! it also jumped from one 'thing' to another too fast. (esp the harry-kissing-cho scene. LOL.) if i didn't read the book, i would be totally clueless as to what the movie was about.


so much for the anticipation. sigh :/



Go, I will give you wings to fly
Cast all your fears into the sky



Confusion infatuates my mind.


I dwelled hard into my own conscience, trying to get an answer. Yet, I reaped no reply. This was taking too long that I was losing the ability to resonate between right and wrong. Not giving up, I continued thru the labyrinth, seeking. Seeking for what, a voice asked. I stopped in my track. A flash past. My mind turned blank. It was only then that i realized something. All along, I have been walking aimlessly, in search for something that doesn’t exist.


A non existence goal.
A non existence future.
A non existence you.


Life’s a conundrum, isn’t it? You might be the answer.



there. my 'WONDERFUL' grades.


physics: 57.0% - C
maths: 55.0% - C
geography: 52.1% - D
GP: 51.0 % - D
chemistry: 47.5% - E


right. 'nuff about depressing stuff.


(chingying started this, NOT ME) it's bout our new geography teacher. heh. his body's so HOT! =x (ohmygod. i can't believe i just said that!) YUP. so well built. so muscular. so macho. LOL. ignore my craziness. but it's here to stay! haha.


MAMEIQI, what exactly is going thru that mind of yours?



REGRET. One's vanished love.


sigh. once again, disappointment befalls. i looked at the paper- 33/60. immediately, i felt warm tears well in my eyes. maths used to be my strongest subject in secondary school. but why has it become this way in JC? the subjects that u were once good in are failing u and cause great demoralization. this must be a sign telling me to buck up. yet, i can't seem to find the strength and motivation to do so anymore.


crying won't help. but it seems like the only appropriate thing to do now.



You have the power.

You are in control.

Make it happen.



EARTH DAY. Wear green!


scas meeting in the morning. brunched at mac with padpad. haven't had hotcakes for so long and it tasted really good! mmmm.. :)


i thought the celebration for the 3 july girls was going to turn out to be a screw up but it worked out quite well :) haha. alright. i'm not elaborating the process because it's complicated. lol. and my nose must have grown longer. thanks to all the lies that i told.


headed to east coast aft our secret meeting at huiing's house (we were preparing their presents) and met up with them. awww, we didn't cycle because it was getting late. sang our heads off at the beach and went terribly off pitch. haha. 100% atrocious sounding but 10000% fun. definitely a good way of destressing!


away with the mid year blues!


due to SOMEONE's persistence, that SOMEONE ended up buying her own cake. no no, HUANGYI, i'm not talking about u. haha. presented our love-filled presents, followed by a photo taking session. and it was time to go home. tiring day. but i enjoyed it tons & loads! :) hope u girls did too!



URGH. I'M FRUSTRATED!

sigh.

anyway i got for myself a really cute notebook! it was love at first sight! it was so irresistibly cute that i couldn't resist not buying it. heh.


The way He smiles..



back to school and i'm not adapting at all. well, we got a new CT. mrs tng's not taking our class anymore for whatever reason and this mr tee's taking over. i'm not saying that he's bad or anyth but it's just that i prefer mrs tng. got back some of our scripts and i'm not exactly satisfied with my results. esp physics. i thought i would do quite well for it. but oh wells. i have to learn to be contented and not set such high expectations for myself. but surprisingly, chem exceeded my expectations. i know getting an E's nothing to be proud of but it's alr good enough for me (at least for this time).

well, there's more for me to handle. not just the results.



outing with crystal and dayna failed :( nvm. another day! so i stayed at home and finished up the tutorials. haha. i'm such a good girl :D

i went to watch FFX's ending again and it was so sad! ohmygod. moved me to tears la. why can't tidus and yuna be tgt? the part when yuna ran thru tidus was like.. *CRIES* too touching! the scene's still running thru my head now. i also like the scene at the spring! so sweet la :) lol.

i don't want to go back to school tmr! i'm still in the holiday mood. ahhhh! and. i am so not looking forward to taking back the exam scripts. too deep an impact. i'm afraid i can't take it.





Kiss me good-bye, love's memory
Follow your heart and find your destiny
Won't shed a tear for love's mortality
For you put the dream in my reality



FAITH. One's trust.

slept like a baby (not a pig k!) from 2 to 11 this morn :) ahhh. the most boring but comfy stayover i ever had :D though i was still tired aft tt. and thanks jon for the lunch. anyway, read amanda's blog for the bubbletea incident!

i did elearning from 5 to 11. and i didn't get in anyth from physics at all. this is so terrible! i hate elearning :( but i love elearning days :)



milk run with the fb girls.

balloon sculpting.






henna.




outing at suntec. didn't eat at NYNY because of low budget so i ate beforehand with gian. stayed over at jon's house. but i was a bad, bad stayover-er. slept straight aft bathing and 2 rounds of daidee. btw i got the 5 biggest cards in my hand for the first game and it was so shiok can! lol.