One is to live as though nothing is a miracle,
and another is to live as though everything is a miracle.
meiqi.
Just a simple blog written by a simple girl
about her simple life :)
Monday, April 30, 2007
guangwei HIGHLY recommend this video. enjoy :)
P.S. It's ultra emo.
my cough worsened :/ and the cough drops aren't helping. anyway, i like to drink cough syrups :) no particular reason. i just think they're good. maybe because they taste like.. cough syrups.
weilin wasn't in school because of her SYF rehersal. it felt weird w/o having her around. and padpad's eyecandy wasn't around too, which made her damn sad la. as for my #1, i'm giving up on him alr. sigh.
6 more days 6 more days 6 more days 6 more days 6 more days 6 more days
:)
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Andrew Lloyd Webber is such a genius.
Night time sharpens Heightens each sensation Darkness stirs and wakes imagination Silently the senses Abandon their defenses Helpless to resist the notes I write For I compose the music of the night
and this is just one small part of his great masterpiece :)
Saturday, April 28, 2007
WOO! i spent the whole afternoon at my table and was so productive! completed lots of hw :) chem tut, chem e-learning, phy assignemnt, phy tut, geog tut and PI. usually, i can't do this much. so, yay!
i'm so proud of meiqi =D
but i'm still gonna keep this mugging spirit up tmr! sigh, gotta study thru stuff that i don't understand. yeah, finally- TIME MANAGEMENT. i have, need and must keep to it. i need to put myself under stress to do well. & to find my motivation. if not, i would just fumble my way through, which is bad.
Definition of 'Stress': (from Longman)
[n] Continuous feelings of worrying about your work or personal life, that prevents you from relaxing
this is so true. i hardly have time to go out, even if it's just to catch a movie (which i actually wanted to do so today, with jasmine! but she had choir and i had hw.) ahhh, fear the terrors of JC life :( which kinda reminded me of what my mummy said when i complained to her about how stressful JC life was: aiya, then you should have went poly.
Friday, April 27, 2007
we had this dumb interval training during pe which almost killed all of us. lessons, lessons. went west plaza with padpad and mogu to have lunch before coming back to attend the SCAS meeting. anyway, there's going to be this stall set up by the SCAS students where they will sell handicraft stuff for Mothers' Day.
Date: 3 May '07 Time: J1 and J2 common lunches Venue: Somewhere outside the canteen
to any meridians reading this, it would be greatly appreciated if u guys could come down to support them. thru this activity, it would provide them with an opportunity to improve on their interactive (with people like us!) skills.
sat at the study benches to study (supposedly) but we ended up chatting. and padpad shared this sad story about one of her close friend. life's unpredictable uh? it's a fact that people change, but the question is, by how much and to what extent. sad case :( so yinsy and shaf (?) joined and we had this mini party with the snacks from the vending machine. shall bid farewell to my throat for the time being. lol. anyway, soccer match was cancelled due to the heavy downpour. stayed back for nth :(
had dinner with my family at tm just now and i saw superduperalot of mj couples. lol. the rate was like 1couple/min. k la, not that exaggerated but still, ALOT.
It hurts when as if you're invisible in some particular person's eyes. It hurts when you want to catch that person's attention yet you retreat when you think of what once happened.
does it make any sense to you?
Thursday, April 26, 2007
'HOORAYS', it's another go-home-and-mug day.
ms koh showed us the physics test analysis ppt and only 15.9% passed. lol. (ohya huangyi, i got 19/30 leh. haha. i'm not suaning u, REALLY.) and they expect 100% passes for the next test. haha wait long long ah! and. i think i caught cy's cough :( throat's feeling alil irritated now.
tingxuan's like the lamest thing on earth.
During compass,
Mrs Tng: My parents don't usually control me. I control myself. TX: Orh. Like use remote control to control liddat?
Next,
Mrs Tng: Like any other person, i enjoy watching serials. TX: Serial? (Cereal) Orh, i usually eat that for breakfast.
SO DUMB RIGHT? gosh. heh.
refering back to para1, it wasn't really a mug day. i watched spongebob when i reached home (DON'T LAUGH. cos it's a really nice show.) and i only started my GP at 8plus. watched american idol from 9-930 and 10-1130. alright, i knw it's time wasting cos i knew i could have done more during that time. i even planned to do my pi! but sadly, nth was done :(
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
first time carrying my fb stick to school today. yay, so cool :) haha. anyway, i failed my chem test. 11/25. but the highest in our class was a 13. LOL. i, or rather WE got cheated for phy practical. we thought it was a mock exam so we studied for it. but guess what, we ended up doing grp work. sigh! btw, i found out 2 interesting facts bout guangwei:
1) He has really nice handwriting. 2) He has a HUGE pencilcase, like him. LOL.
watched council elections till bout 4plus before going for fb. we had to play indoors cos there was lightning. anyway, everyone was treating their new sticks like precious gems. it would be so sayang to see the stick being scratched! haha. and i saw padpad's eyecandy when i was leaving :)
It feels as if i don't belong at all.
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
rushed thru my PI 2nd draft till about 1 last night and i still got to work on it later :/ anyway, it was a terrible day for me. when you want to see someone really badly, you won't get to see him, not even once. but when you don't want to, the reverse happens. sigh, he even said hi! :(
alright, gotta mug! lots of homework waiting for me.
Monday, April 23, 2007
i was late for the first time today and being so unfortunate, we were all 'summoned' to LT3 for a lecture by ms lai. and woah, more than 2/3 of the seats were filled. imagine the no of latecomers!
maths test was alright except for the fact that i threw 9 marks away =/ anyway, i was intending to go home straight after school but it started raining ELEPHANTS & DINOSAURS & HIPPOPO-TA-MUSES [not moses lim. haha :)] the lightning and thunder was striking and booming at a such high frequency that it made everybody startle.
the emal GOSH started this whole nickname thing and now i'm called ma tong =.=
i'm too deeply in love with the Phantom of The Opera that i can't pull myself out.
What raging fire shall flood the soul? What rich desire unlocks its door? What sweet seduction lies before us?
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Past the point of no return No backward glances: Our games of make believe are at an end
Past all thought of "if" or "when" No use resisting: Abandon thought, and let the dream descend
went with WODEREN's pengyou- hiangling to get our sticks. lol she got a map cos the shop was at a very ulu area. but in the end, we still spent a long, LONG time getting to the shop. urrgh. terrible experience! shan't elaborate. both of us got a $125 black unihoc stick and a ball each. but they should have a wider variety cos i couldn't find a stick which i really really like.
anyway, i saw this place called 'Sing Hoe Hotel'. haha.
=D
met chuiying and the co people for dinner at parkway before making our way to VJ for the co concert. lol. and padpad's eyecandy was so near me! [hy and lk think he's cute too!] haha he was at the side of the stage while i was at the third row. heh :) and jas even took pics of him and sent them to me. can't post them up here in case someone might see and i would be so dead =X k, and tingkai's in vj! anyway, when vj played 'chun', all the memories of the co syf practices just came back to me. sigh. btw, i didn't see any of my eye candies!!
gianhui's, huangyi's and leekiang's autograph!
had supper at tm mac (we met gerald on bus 31 so he joined us) and hy&lk joined us after that. was actually watching the metoer shower but only me and hy can make it. so we decided not to go. the sky was full of stars when we were walking home, so there's a possibility of the meteor shower taking place.
It was more than mere disappoinment.
Friday, April 20, 2007
My miracle. My dream-come-true :)
MY $147!! but i believe it's worth it.
my precious lil' ticket. OHMYGOD. i was feeling ultrasuperduper excited when i got it! i can't believe i'm going to watch it on 6 May. i'm going to have 15 sleepless nights (excluding tonight) just thinking about it! :)
and tmr's another excited day. because i'm getting my fb stick with WODEREN's pengyou at kallang. SO COOL RIGHT? :D i used to envious those who carry their sticks around. heh and it's finally my turn!
anyway, i missed the chance to see my #1 :( i was hesitating whether to go back to watch the soccer match at mj after collecting my Olvl cert at ngee ann. in the end, i didn't. but after tt, padpad said she saw him and #1's #2 lor! sigh :'(
but overall, i'm a contented and blissful girl today :)
Thursday, April 19, 2007
i'm now facing this page with a blank mind. a blank mind, with complicated thoughts. complicated thoughts, with trivial cogitations. trivial cogitations, with harsh intentions. harsh intentions, with tender reasonings. tender reasonings, with caustic feelings. caustic feelings, with a blank mind. a blank mind, without you.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
i'm going to fail chem (because i left like 3 pages blank) and geog (i didn't have enough time to finish writing). anyway, physics practical sucked. just the setting up of the apparatus took almost 3/4 of the time. and i was got really frustrated with the measurements, resulting in me being ultra WOLS. fb after school and it was really slack cos we only had like THREE balls. lol. anyway, i realised there are quite a no of pretty girls in fb. some of them got really sexy legs :X so irritating can! make me feel so inferior :( i admit i look at pretty girls too. who doesn't?
haha. but i am 100% STRAIGHT.
he was running infront of us during the warmup rounds. and i saw him playing bball too. [hazi caught me looking in the direction of the bball courts, and she went like: looking at hot guys eh? haha. it was funny.] why didn't fb end later? i'll then have an excuse to stay longer in school. maybe bball alr ended. maybe i'll get to see him at the bus stop. maybe i'll take the same bus as him..
sigh, maybe i'm thinking too much.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
i was feeling so lousy the whole day.
morning was so malu-nising! i reached just on time, so i didn't hear any announcements. i saw people walking towards the assembly plaza so i followed suit. but strangely, i didn't see any familiar faces [except padpad's eyecandy!]. it was only until then when i heard someone calling my name. i turned towards the linkway and saw mogu signalling me to go to the hall. ohmygod. SO GAY RIGHT. the J2s must have thought sth was wrong with me.
there's chem and geog test tmr. i haven't started on chem and for geog, i can't seem to get anyth in! :( omg. i'm going to screw up both tests terribly!
well, i don't think anybody's going for the musical. so i guess i'm going alone :) but it's okay! getting the ticket soon, really soon! i'm so excited! haha.
Monday, April 16, 2007
after school, the rest either had chinese or cca. i had neither so i made a trip to tm to get the stuff for stacia's present. btw, it's her birthday today. we're giving her a belated one :X sorry sweetheart! as i was leaving, i saw a whole group of meridians coming up the escalator, and i spotted him. my mood sank. and i gave the lousiest 'hi' ever, without even looking. but immediately after that, i felt like looking at him again. maybe i should camp at his bus stop. ha. what am i thinking?
i spent like 5 hrs making stacia's present. sacrificed my studying time [i have 2 tests on wed!] for her present. my contacts was on till 1030 and that was also the time i went to bathe. i'm such a noble friend :) stacia, u better cherish it hor.
shuning watched the Phantom of the Opera musical during the weekends and she said it was really really really [it could go on to infinity] good! the singing, the effects, the music by the live orchestra.. now i feel like going, even more! just now, i pleaded with my papa to watch it with me [nobody else wants to watch it with me] but he said it was too exp. i was on the verge of crying but he remained adamant about it. since it is Broadway's longest-running and most popular musical, it would definitely be a once-in-a-lifetime experience, i said, so why not make it worthwhile? and guess what his reply was: too expensive (again).
okay, i'm begging with u guys, if u are interested to go, TELL ME. i need to know asap. if nobody is going with me, i'm going alone, which sounds pathetic but i have no choice. i checked the pricing and seating plan online and i'm aiming the $145 seats, which is on sat & sun (2pm). there's also a student concession price at $50 but the seats are all the way up on level 3 and i'm not sure if the tickets are still available. well, remember to tell me k?
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I'm giving up. I've decided not to wait anymore.
Sunday, April 15, 2007
i mugged the whole day again. SIGH. and it sucked. but guess what, i solved the physics questions and i'm ultra proud of myself over that :) and yeah, i redid my PI & i hope it would get accepted this time round. i'm sick of doing them over and over again. PIs just suck. urs might not even get selected.
sigh. i'm seriously missing somone.
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Can we relish that memory again?
Saturday, April 14, 2007
my bro's taking his bath so i finally have a chance to use the computer. but i've gotta be quick cos he's going to come out any moment now. i mugged since like 10 this morning. finished my maths tut but couldn't solve a single qn for phy! i don't understand the whole of the 2D motion section. urrgh. but oh wells, shall work my brain again later. i shall not give up this easily. i'm not going to let PHYSICS defeat me. muahaha! :D so after that, i studied geog [actually not really, i wrote all the notes out in this really nice A4 notebook which i just bought- just like sec sch. i NEED to write stuff out to understand them.] my aim is to finish everyth by today because i've decided to devote the whole day tmr for my PI!
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The world seems bigger than both of us Yet it seems so small when I begin to cry
Friday, April 13, 2007
it's friday the 13th and an unlucky day for me. unlike me, padpad was a happy and contented girl today. she saw hers for like n times! andandand there was this outside-the-PE-room incident which i'm lazy to elaborate. sigh but for me, i didn't see him at all. padpad saw him at the drink stall. serene saw him [perfect clear view] at pastamania [so coincidental can!]. according to her, she squealed when she saw him and now he thinks tt serene likes him.
i'm so not in a good mood now. someone, console me. bawls.
went for the SCAS briefing at the Cerebral Palsy Centre, next door to mj. it was only today that i knew that cerebral palsy is a disorder that affects body movement and muscle coordination because of brain damage. and it usually happens in infancy or early childhood. the four major classifications are: Spastic, Athetoid, Ataxic and Mixed.
we should be starting actual from next friday onwards and i'm really looking forward to the sessions. let me make a confession: i had never volunteer at any old folks home or orphanage so this would be my first time. although i don't knw what kind of situations i would meet with, it would definitely be an enriching and meaningful experience. and most importantly, i hope tt i would be of help to those children there. because of their physical disabilities, they are not able to lead lives like those of normal children. i can't imagine leading a life like theirs, having to rely on others for most daily functions.
during geog tut, i suddenly thought of an old song- Without Your Love by 5566. i remember it as a really nice and touching song and i absolutely loved it then :) sherlin must be smiling like crazy over the fact tt i still listen to their songs.
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Fate. It's either you have it, or you don't. It's the latter for me.
Thursday, April 12, 2007
i slept at 1 and woke up at 545. and it resulted in me sleeping so unglamly on the bus! there's this Lyrids Star Party held at Republic Poly and it's a one day overnight educational astronomy camp. SO COOL RIGHT? and the best part is that we can get to star gaze and watch a meteor shower! but when i went to the website, the sign up quota alr hit the max :( sigh, i really want to go!
i was so high at the bus stop after school and weilin kept making me laugh! but pity, he didn't take the same bus :( anyway, we went tpj to celebrate leekiang's birthday. so, happy birthday dearest johnny! :) [luckily, the fishes are still alive.] and i saw dear's eyecandy! quite cute la. but i still prefer mine! they went to have dinner tgt [CHEESE SPAG + BUBBLETEA!!] but i didn't cos my mummy alr cooked. sigh. i suddenly realised i really missed my secondary school friends and those times we once shared. JC life ain't gonna be like that at all.
if you know that he's going to ignore you, what would you do?
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
though i got to sleep 1 hr more, i was still tired. it must be my flu. been sneezing throughout the whole day. fb after school [& weilin's reaction was: WAH. finally!] and it ended early, like 450. we're getting our sticks soon [so exciting! don't u think so? heh.] but the better sticks tt the seniors recommend us to get cost like $150 and above. which is so expensive! sigh. anyway, like what HL said, competition is really tough and if u can't keep up to the standard, in terms of skills and fitness, there's a high possibility tt u can't get into college team. so, if i get the stick, but didn't make it, what's the point? and if tt happens, i'll be sad. really really sad. at that time, must console me, k?
(for pubilicity purposes)
Vote for Ching Ying #43 and Xin Wei #13 :)
before i forget, happy birthday QIQIN!
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
sth's wrong with my monitor. there's this white horizontal line across the screen. oh wells, nvm. anyway, i picked up 2 new words from josh, opps sorry- it's GOSH :D WOLS and EMAL. haha. freaking hilarious! F&C during PE and ohmygod i seriously suck at standing broad jump. watched part of the soccer match btwn mj and ysj before meeting up with shan to meet up with hy. we went 201 to get some stuff. haha. haven't been to that place for ages.
ms tng told me to redo my PI by this week. urrgh. i really hate doing that.
tutorials. tests. PW. many others activities! sleeping so late almost every night and waking up at the wee hours of dawn, feeling so lethargic. the worst part is- it's just the beginning! i wonder how am i going survive for another 2 years. sigh :(
Monday, April 09, 2007
i finished my PI at 12 last night. though i'm better than gerold, who finished it at 3. anyway thanks for helping me print my PI :) lessons ended early today but there was still photo taking [IT SUCKED] and the trials after school. our cg won the J1 classes for gladiator's ball [all thanks to the guys cos they're so freaking tall and pro. i couldn't even catch up with them.] so if we win the J2, we represent callisto.
it was the same dreadful feeling when i think about it. and when i see you.
Sunday, April 08, 2007
i only started doing my chem tut, maths tut and GP research in the afternoon. no, i wasn't slacking in the morning. i woke up at 11. after all the washing up and stuff, not forgetting lunch, it was alr 12+. sigh, now i'm doing my PI and it really sucked. my brain's almost dead from all the brainstorming so here i am, taking a break. if not, u might not most probably see me in school tmr.
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What exactly are you doing to me? Giving me hope and dashing them the next moment. I really thought that it would be possible. And it seems to me that you're trying to avoid me. Why is this happening to me again? Is this some kind of curse? I really don't want to go thru all these anymore. Spare me, please. Don't keep me waiting any longer. Because it hurts, it really hurts..
Saturday, April 07, 2007
belated birthday celebration for jon. didn't make it to safra to meet up with the rest cos i went with hy and gian to get his present instead. sorry for tt! went to his house for bbq at night :) jon played the piano and it has been so long since i last heard someone doing tt. there was so much laming btwn me and hy. sigh. i don't think i can find a soul (gay) partner like her in jc :(
it's one of those nights when you play the list of emo songs in your mp3 on shuffle before you sleep. suddenly, you feel like crying.
and you did.
Friday, April 06, 2007
last night, we celebrated zhangchuan's birthday during the movie marathon. there was a 1kg oreo cake and presents (me and cy got him mr bean's bear. so cute la!) we also bought alot of snacks, and drinks which we didn't manage to finish in the end. anyway tingxuan was complaining throughout tt he paid $75. haha poor guy. and zc said 'i wanna cry alr' for like 10 times.
the (surprise) cake!
first movie was the one with jackie chan, gu tian le and the EXTREMELY cute baby. not bad, cos the baby's so cute *squeals* second movie was Silk- a horror movie! ohmygod i can't believe i watched it. it wasn't as scary as other scary movies but it was still scary. [some of the scenes are still stuck in my head. can't shake em off! :( though i closed my eyes throughout the scary parts.] the storyline's cool, yeah, really cool. third, Curse of the Golden Flowers. i didn't watch and i didn't felt like watching so i slept thru it. fourth, Fearless. fifth, Confessions of Pain. i managed to watch one part and that part was damn saddistic la. tony leung was using some buddha statue to hit a person until blood was spilling everywhere. we got bored and started playing daidee. and after we got bored of daidee, we started to take pictures of the bears.
Before- Cy's pooh, Zc's bean and my classic teddy.
After- There's Twisties (plus a fork and a plate to go with it), F&N orange and a deck of cards. And if you'd notice, the pooh's listening to mp3. LOL.
tx with Bean's bear- the bear was 'nodding'. tts why u're seeing double.
Birthday boy with his bear/ Mr Bean with his bear (opps. this pic isn't supposed to be up!)
anyway, my #1's #2 was infront of me (almost) throughout the marathon :D
went home after finishing the birthday cake. we were forced to finish a slice each but who would have the appetite to eat cake in the early morn? :/ i reached home at 9+ and slept from 11 to 6! haha i don't think i can fall asleep tonight.
You didn't come.
Thursday, April 05, 2007
happy birthday wobbly :D
did u watch ytd's american idol performance? LOL. the judges' comments for sanjaya was freaking hilarious.
Randy: I can't comment about your vocal anymore. Paula: blahblahblah. Thank you for the dance Simon: Let me try a different tactic this time.. INCREDIBLE! (ohmygod can u sense the overwhelming sarcasm? and u shld have heard his tone. it made me laugh like- ?)
i don't see what's the pt of studying for the physics test till 12 last night :(
anyway, josh calls me MA JIE. ohmygod. so nan ting! and he told wobbly too!!
weilin was so funny during maths tut la! she laughed really LOUD (and nobody else was doing so) when mrs tng commented bout a satay stick on the floor and tt made everybody else laugh.
after that (it was still about the satay stick)
Mrs Tng: Someone could have eaten fishballs, or nuggets. Class: laughs. Mrs Tng: Are you guys oversensitive to the word 'balls'? Class: laughs harder.
padpad and mogu went to donate blood after school. i would have done so if i weren't afraid of needles. i really can't imagine the thick needle piercing thru my skin. ouchouch OUCH!
sheesh i was so sleepy tt i fell asleep on the bus. but luckly i woke up at my stop and went to take 293. and ohmygod. i can't believe it!
anyway, i'm going for the movie marathon later. tts why i'm blogging now. BYE :)
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
the morning started off great.
just this once, it's enough. even if nth will result from it, i'm contented.
i really can't stand the way our chem tutor speaks! and. he's so lame. in our first tut, one of his expectation was: Behave like a proton. you knw why? because a proton is positively charged.
there's another geography trip- to japan and it's the cheapest among all 3 trips. i really hope i can go! i had never been to japan so it would really be an eye opener for me :)
i've gotta go mug for the physics lecture test tmr. i haven't touched thermal and if i don't start now, it would be- uh oh! seeya all!
i love the pink poker cards.
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
to those of you who had heard Numb by Linkin Park. this is a beautiful beautiful piano rendition of the song. the starting is esp nice :)
lessons as usual. i can't believe i made it till 505! yay! ohya, i grew taller by 1cm but my weight still remained the same. haha. went for the SCAS briefing with padpad after PE.
serene told padpad to tell me tt my #1 is carrying a new TUMBLER [wth?] tt was what she told me initially. who in the right mind would bring a tumbler to school! but actually, padpad heard wrongly. it was actually a crumpler. padpad, do you knw what's the diff btwn a crumpler and a tumbler? haha. she's so blur!
heh. padpad's crazy about her eyecandy :D
linkin park's new album is coming out, but not so soon :( i am so anticipating :) their songs are super nice! i still rmb i went crazy with gian bout their songs.
I'M SO DISGUSTED- there was this guy who actually spat on the bus. do u have any idea how gross tt was? some unfortunate fella might just step on tt POOL of phlegm unknowingly. in the first place who would actually look at the floor of the bus while boarding?
sigh :( he didn't reognise me!
Monday, April 02, 2007
i was almost late for school today. haha. anyway i was SO tired today. i dozed off a few times during pw so i didn't catch a single thing bout PI.
mrs seng calls me the LOANSHARK.
NASCO SYF- GOLD :) too bad i couldn't watch them perform. anyway congrats to them! at least they maintained our standard. heh. although it would have been better to get a GWH (DHS got GWH!)
woo. finally went running. but i was blowing my nose and running at the same time. haha. ever seen anyone done tt? there was also a fellow merdian running.
i read about the phantom of the opera musical on the chi newspaper so nice! and they really had the HUGE 'dangling ceiling light' (i don't knw the correct term for it). it would descend from above the audience to the stage. so cool right?
832 - 817 = 15 :)
Sunday, April 01, 2007
why must april's fool day be on a weekend?
i haven't done any studying since morning till now (1636). tutorials untouched. tests unprepared. SO MANY THINGS not done. and i promised to read thru the geog notes too. alright i'll go mug straight after THIS.
anyway, i forgot to mention tt i got into fb. yay! :)